September 29, 2009

one-eyed jack: day 2

yes, i still have the patch. while i'm on the way for my 11AM appointment i was hoping that the doctor will remove the patch and i can already live a normal life. but after the eye tests she gave me, she said that the cut is still there and i still need to cover my eye. in addition they gave me drops to speed up the healing of the cut. i was asked to return tomorrow at 4PM and they'll check again my eye. if i'm lucky and the cut is not anymore visible i can go home without the patch but if not it seems i have to look like this by the time i return to work.

alfa drove and accompanied me (thank you so much neng)

adik sa yo (sa kanila)

September 28, 2009

one-eyed jack

sep 28 2009 - got injured and sustained corneal laceration on my right eye -

had it treated in Cedars Jebel Ali International Hospital. the doctor said it's not that severe but i need to take some rest until the scratch heals. aside from the three different drops they've put on my eye, they also gave me anti-tetanus shot and prescribed antibiotics. tomorrow i need to return for a follow-up check-up and hopefully the patch will be removed.

to my officemates, thank you so much - to jen and fiore, who brought me to the hospital, to eric who drove me home and to the rest of my 3D family for the concern.

to rodlyn, thanks for looking after me here at home

September 21, 2009

backstreet's back alright!

all i can say is ...... waaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

August 12, 2009

darn it really hurts!

it has been changed again and i do feel this time it's true. for the second time around it hurts so bad, really bad. i'm holding back the tears as i fight with the severe pain i feel inside.

it hurts but i have to deal with it.

April 05, 2009

what i feel

my horoscope for today says: Write out your feelings today -- the physical act will help you understand them.

ok here goes nothing ... i'm very, very, very, tired, i'm fed up, i'm beaten up, i'm mad, i'm sad, i'm jealous, i'm worried, i'm abused, i want to fight back, i'm nearly breaking down, i feel like giving up, i'm losing hope yet i'm still hoping, i'm faking happiness.

there, i've done it...and it didn't change a thing!

March 27, 2009

ask me a question

Ask me a question.
It can be about anything from my favorite color to something more personal and in return I get to ask you one back... and so on and so forth until we either discover we hate each other or lose interest.
Ready? Game!

March 21, 2009

the weekend that was

last day of the weekend (well here in dubai) and i can say i had accomplished a lot of things. compared yesterday, my back was literally glued to the bed. tumatayo lang ako kapag pupunta sa loo, o kaya kakain o kaya iinom. ang tamad di ba?!? after naming maglaba nung umaga ayun start na ang oras nang pagbababad namin sa internet. ay pero nung gabi lumabas pala ako, nagpunta ako kila diche (alfa's sis) at naki-chika nang sandali. actually, more than two hours din yata ako don. at good news din kasi when i got back, ok na rin ang cable tv namin (yes! updated na ulit kami). going back to what happened today, yun nga ang dami kong na-accomplish. nung umaga (bandang 9am) i went to an optical shop to get the lenses for my new new frame (so happy about it, makikita nyo rin ito soon), and while waiting for the opti-guy i requested the carwash boy from the parking lot to wash pepper's exterior. at dahil sa hindi ko kaya ang init sa labas, sa loob na lang ako ng optical shop naghintay both sa eyeglasses ko at kay pepper.

after an hour tapos na ang eyeglasses ko at tapos na ring malinisan si pepper. sabi ko yes! maaga akong makakauwi. pagkauwi ko hindi muna ako umakyat sa flat namin, kasi nga since exterior lang ang nalinis kay pepper siyempre kailangan kong linisan ang loob. ewan ko ba, pero feeling ko therapeutic ang paglilinis ng sasakyan. kahit na medyo mahirap siyang gawin, still i get this good feeling. lalo na kapag tapos mo na tong gawin. kanina nga nung matapos ko ciang linisin parang gusto kong matulog sa loob *hahahaha* oa man pero totoo.

matapos kong maglinis, panik na ko sa flat namin, and after a few minutes lumabas naman kami ni chai and headed for dubai outlet mall, nagpasama ciang bumili ng shoes for her pamangkin. doon na rin kami nag-lunch adn ciempre i made my window shopping na rin. wala talaga akong intention na gumastos pero OMG sinong hindi makakapagpigil kapag nakita mong on sale, as in on big sale ang ted baker! kainis di ba!?!? in short ayun nakabili ako. pero in fairness naman sa akin sa 3 pants at 3 blouses na sinukat ko eh isa lang ang nagpagdesisyunan kong bilhin (pramis, ang hirap magdesisyon!). so yun nga, nang matapos na ang shopping moment sa outlet mall, we headed to the supermarket. nag-grocery lang kami ng konti para pasalubong nya at pati na rin sa house namin.

March 18, 2009

everybody deserves a good laugh, so here...have one!

i got the below from an email today from my officemate. and i must say it really made my day.

read on and enjoy! [ 'coz i did ;) ]

peace!

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Makabagong kasabihan: Kagandahan edition
1 ) Para sa magaganda: "aanhin mo ang ganda, kung wala ka namang papa."
2 ) Para sa gustong magpaganda/retokada : "kung gusto mong lumandi, tiisin mo ang hapdi"
3 ) Para sa mga feeling magaganda: "talbog ang matigas na tinapay sa tigas ng mukha ng nagmamagandang inday"
4 ) Para sa mga walang ganda: "mabait man daw at magaling, ang chaka-chaka pa rin"

****
Words to live by ng mga bading (hehehe)
"Walang kaibi-kaibigan pag agawan na ng dyowa ang usapan"
"Sa hinaba-haba man ng prusisyon, bading din pala ang magiging karelasyon."
"Walang matinong lalake sa malanding kumpare"
"Aanhin mo ang guwapo, kung mas malandi pa sa iyo?"
"Ang hindi marunong magmahal sa sariling dyowa, sa mga bath houses
naglipana."
"Matalino man daw ang bading, napeperahan pa rin."
****

T: Ano ang pinakamasakit na maramdaman kung matanda na tayo?
S: 'Yung paggising mo, tapos, pagtingin mo sa tagiliran, matanda rin ang iyong katabi.

***
Symptoms of a CERTIFIED SINGLE:
· Mahilig kumain.
· Panalo ang social life. Alam lahat ng gimikan at mall sale.
· Hayok sa tulog.
· Gadget-addict.
· Sa cellphone, group message nang group message ng quotes.
· Ngumingiti kahit nag-iisa.
· Tumataba.
· Porma to the max.
· Mukhang happy kahit hindi naman talaga.

Symptoms of a CERTIFIED TAKEN:
· Walang pera.
· Mukhang ngarag at laspag.
· Kuripot.
· Blooming, kasi, kailangan para hindi iwan.
· Walang social life kundi dyowa niya.
· Boring kausap.
***

Mga PAMATAY na HIRIT
"Kumain ka ba ng asukal? Ang tamis kasi ng ngiti mo!"
"May lahi ka bang keyboard? Type kasi kita!"
"Ipapupulis kita! Ninakaw mo kasi ang puso ko!"
"Are you a dictionary? Kasi, you add meaning to my life."
"Meron ka bang lisensya? Kasi, you drive me crazy."
"I lost my number. Can I have yours?"
"Angel ba ang name mo? Kasi, you look like one."
"I forgot your name. Can I call you mine?"
PAMATAY na REPLY
"Excuse me, kumain ka ba ng mais? Ang corny mo kasi!"
***

7 tips para maiba naman ang araw mo:
1.Sikmuraan ang unang taong kasalubong at humingi ng sorry.
2.Uminom ng pampatulog at labanan ito, magexercise.
3.Tibagin ang bahay gamit ang kutsara at buuin muli.
4.Himatayin kunwari sa daan, tiyaking may tao.
5.Tahiin ang puwet at magpatingin sa doctOR
6.Kurutin ang nakababatang kapatid pagkatapos unahan mong umiyak.
7.Makapagtitigan sa isda. Huwag titigil hanggat hindi ito kumukurap…

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MISTER: wala akong tulog dahil naiisip ko P500K na utang ko kay pare.
MISIS: madali yan! Tawagan mo si pare, sabihin mong hindi ka makakabayad sa utang mo para siya naman ang hindi makatulog!

****
JUDGE: isa ka palang pusher, kidnapper, gun for hire, gambling lord, swindler at bugaw! Wala ka bang matinong hanapbuhay?
ACCUSED: meron po. Pulis po ako.
****

JEEP PASSENGER: manong bayad.
JEEP DRIVER: saan galling?
JEEP PASSENGER: sa akin.
JEEP DRIVER: papunta saan?
JEEP PASSENGER: sayo.

Babae: Doc, kumusta na ang asawa ko?
Doc: Sorry ma'am. Mula ngayon, ikaw na ang magpapakain at
magpapaligo sa kanya, kasi, putol na ang kanyang mga kamay at paa.
Babae: Hah?! Hin di nga?!?
Doc: Hehehe! Ninerbyos ka ano? Joke lang! Patay na sya!
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Mrs: Naniniwala ka ba na ang babae habang tumatanda ay gumaganda?
Mr: Oo naman.
Mrs: Sa tingin mo, gumaganda ba ako?
Mr: Sa tingin ko, hindi ka tumatanda.

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Son: Itay, pinagalitan ako ng titser ko!
Dad: Bakit?
Son: Hin alikan ko po ang seatmate ko.
Dad: Tong anak ko, manang mana. Hehehe. Eh, masarap ba?
Son: Opo, pogi po sya eh.

****
Lasing: Hoy! Sinong matapang?! Labas!
Lalake: Ako! Bakit? Lalaban ka?!
Lasing: Pare, ihatid mo naman ako sa bahay, natatakot ako kay misis eh.

****
Tatay: Asensado na talaga ang anak natin sa US . Ito, nagpadala ng
picture, nakasandal sa kotse. Basahin mo nga ang nakasulat sa likod.
Nanay: Inay, nagpapasalamat ako, kasi, kung hindi dahil sa kotse na ito, natumba na ako sa sobrang gutom.



Sintomas ng PINOY LOVE:
As if walang pakialam pero deep inside, worried na… miss na miss na...
Pag nag-text, "So what?" daw Pero later, magre-reply rin naman.
Pa-erase-erase pa ng # kunwari pero… hello… memoryado naman 'yung #.
Kapag hindi tine-text ng bf/gf niya, kunwari, na-wrong send para magpapansin.
Ayaw mag-text pero nagtatanong sa barkada ng bf/gf niya kung kumusta na.
Haaayy… LOVE nga naman sa Pilipinas, oh… pang-adik!



GREAT FACTS
Regular naps prevent old age, especially if you take them while driving.
Having one child makes you a parent; having two makes you a referee
Marriage is a relationship wherein one person is always right and the other person is the husband.
They said we should all pay our taxes with a smile. I tried but they wanted cash.
The human brain functions 24 hours/day, 365 days/year until you fall for someone…
BERTO: Ano ang mas mahalaga, pera o asawa?
ROMY: Syempre, pera! Kasi, ang pera, habang tumatagal, lumalaki ang interes. Ang asawa, habang tumatagal, nawawalan ka ng interes, tapos, inuubos pa ang pera mo



HILARIOUS!!!
2 Mag-amiga naglasing. Paguwi natae sila at sa sementeryo inabutan. Ang isa ginamit ang panty pamunas tsaka tinapon. Yung isa, nakakita ng bouquet ng flower sa puntod at ginawang pamunas.

Kinabukasan, sabi ng mga asawa nila:
JUAN:Pare, bantayan natin mga misis natin…Misis ko umuwi kagabi walang panty!
PEDRO: Mas grabe misis ko pare…Merong card nakadikit sa puwet na may nakasulat "We'll never forget you. From all the guys at the OPERATIONS DEPT."
****

Guwapo nagtext: Luv, p load nman P100.
Bakla: Ok! (Nagmamadaling naghanap ng loading station).
Bakla: Narecieve mo na luv?
Guwapo: Hu u?
****

In the middle of a baptismal rite, a bishop officiating said:
"Ang lambot naman ng ulo ng bata…" The pretty mother replied: "Father…dede ko po yan!"
****

Motto of the day: "Masarap magmahal kung ang minamahal mo ay masarap"

****
Ama: Bading ka ba?
Anak: Opo, dadi
Ama: (Dinuldol sa harina c jr). Ano?! Bading ka pa ba?!
Anak: Hin di na po.
Ama: Eh anon a?
Anak: Geisha na po! (Ang taray!)

Always remember…No matter how bad you are…You are not totally useless.. You can always be….used as a BAD EXAMPLE! Inspiring! Hehe

****
Kagabi, sumakay ako sa jeep…lahat sila nakatingin sa akin…ang sama ng tingin Nila sa akin…sinubukan kong mag-abot ng bayad pero hindi nla tinangkang kunin ang bayad ko…bigla akong kinilabutan…hanggang sa my kumalabit na matanda sa akin at sinabing…."Arkilado namin ito.."





March 11, 2009

Anything Less Than Mad Love Is A Waste Of Your Time by Leah Castaneda

another one from her, for me and you.

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One of the most recently released movies that have perhaps hit home(cringe!), so to speak, is the low budget "Dream for an Insomniac" starring Ione Skye and Jennifer Aniston. The lead actor used to be a child star but unfortunately, the movies, which catapulted him to fame, have already slipped my mind. Try to rent a copy of this movie not because of the talent of those who starred in it but because of the dialogue. One of those lines, which bore a hole in my heart, was, and I quote (not verbatim, though):

"I don't want to be sixty years old and married to my second-best choice,wondering what ever happened to the one who got away."

This is just one of the two great lines in that movie. I'll tell you what the other one is later. Meantime, let me concentrate on this line-the line that sends chills down your spine once you decide to spend more than five seconds thinking about it.

Have you ever wondered what it must feel like married to the one you settled on? This truly gives me great feelings of anxiety. It might be difficult to accept the word "settle" because it conjures! Up images of quasi-happiness and half-hearted glee. Yes, there is some sort of satisfaction and perhaps, some feeling of security that can be derived from such a partnership but I wonder, could there be anything more? To settle is to ultimately accept what is within reach, what is available, what is there. To settle is to convince one's self that the decision about to be made is inevitable, realistic, and safe. To settle is to risk not ever being truly happy because one decides to adopt the worst type of 'bahala na' attitude on life's greatest challenges.

And settling is a sorry consequence of the passage of time. Yes, time can be the balm that soothes open, painful wounds in one's heart but it can also be that dark force that manipulates one's mind into thinking and believing that the choice one has made is the best choice... the only choice. What time does, and I'm sure you'll agree, is it lodges one's mind and heart in a cage with the door partly open-with the promise of a better life losing its appeal over the reality of the present, the convenient, and the routine.

Time also pressures one into selecting a suitor or spouse because 'wala nang iba' (there is no one else)and 'nagmamadali na ako' (I'm in a hurry) and there, 'puwede na rin.' (I'll make do). The wickedness of "settling" is not one way. It also eventually hurts the one who was chosen because in all respects, the truth will surface. You no doubt realize that you just wasted each other's time and emotions. But then again, if your spouse chose you not because he or "settled", then forget about the win-win situation you were gunning for.

Frankie (Ione Skye) delivered that line when she was deciding whether or not to do everything possible to win David Shrader's heart. David happened to be involved with someone else. He was attracted to Frankie but didn't really think it wise to split up with his girlfriend of three years on a limb. Very much unlike you and me, Frankie is very atypical of the Rules Girl. She went for David, bared her soul, and tried to convince him that he will only be happy with her. She then gave him the other great line in the movie to make him leave his girlfriend for her.

"Anything less than mad, passionate love is a waste of my time."

Many times, in my not too colorful past, I almost gave in to the urge to tell the boy I liked what I felt for im. In all those times, I opted otherwise for fear of my mother's wrath and, of course,embarrassment in case of rejection. I am scared of losing my precious dignity and pride in case he tells me that he only sees me as a friend. I'm sure you got through these exercises in your psyche too.

Sometimes, our hearts win out over our brains when our certainty over the outcome is great. I try to espouse The Rules and very rarely make the first move. More often than not, I wait for the guy to call. Now you know that I'm one of those who walk the avenues of life on a sidewalk-never off it.

Now, I'm starting to believe otherwise. I see the beauty in sharing your feelings with the one you love - not because you expect something in return but because life cannot be lived otherwise. It is a great, big step for an otherwise conservative, "torpe" girl like you and me,but if you think about it, it's the only way to go.

Richard Paul Evans' bestseller after The Christmas Box-The Locket-tells us the story of a woman who fell in love with a soldier when they were both very young. They shared their feelings with each other and were very happy. Eventually, he went off to war and she married somebody else, thinking he wouldn't return to her. Years passed and they lived their separate lives-he married and had a family while the woman's husband and son eventually succumbed to illnesses and died.

She decided to wait for her soldier's wife to die before she came back to him-because she didn't think it was right to complicate his life. The wait took more than sixty years until she eventually found the announcement of his wife's death in the obituary. By his time, the woman was already 80 and could barely walk. Sadly, by the time she managed to find her soldier to tell him she loved him, he was already senile. The woman eventually died a few days after seeing her soldier and perhaps going through the most heart-wrenching experience in her life. She was too late.

The morals of the stories I have mentioned above are similar and almost connected to each other. Perhaps another book theme that we can tie into these is that line from The Bridges of Madison County - "This kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime."

I am of the belief that each person is given the chance to find his one true love as he goes about his life. Sometimes, the opportunity is not too obvious, especially for those who are content with their situation and therefore are not seeking "greener pastures." These times, the chance is often passed up. The luckier ones are those who are probably more clear-minded and in touch with their emotions because they can easily recognize what is staring them in the face. Whether this chance is passed up or not, I know that the feeling one gets when this chance is still within reach is one of certainty. Yes, it is also accompanied with feelings of danger, of risk, and of possible pain but compensating for this is that inexplicable "sureness," that sense of profound happiness that has never been derived anywhere else but from that one person who just happened to pass by in your tidy little life.

I call true love a gift because of its rarity. It does not happen everyday. If you pass it up the first time, try not to be too arrogant to look away when it comes by the second time. You may ask me "how willI know if this is my true love?" My answer to that is this: true love is that strong, awesome feeling that scares the hell out of you but always makes you unbearably happy. It doesn't go away, no matter how much you will it to. More than anything else, you'll know in your heart when you meet him that he is the one. He doesn't become the one the same way that soulmates do not become soulmates later in life. With him, you are damn certain that you are not settling. With him, you know that you will be sixty years old and never wondering about the one that got away because he never did...

He's right there holding your hand.

March 07, 2009

thank you for the music Francis

Francis KIKO Magalona will surely be missed. A man with a unique talent who expresses his different perspective in life through his music and art had left us. I may not be considered as one of his no.1 fans but i had been a follower of his music in my own special way. believe it or not, just this week my officemates and i were talking about him in the car on our way to work and having the song Cold Summer Nights being played on the background. then when i heard the news about his demise yesterday i thought that day that we were talking about him really meant something. I and the rest of the people who look up to him do pray for him and his family. Francis is now truly a freeman and one with our Lord and for sure he'll always be there to look after his beautiful family.

"Even though you're not anymore with us and we won't get to see you perform again on stage, you and you're music will always be in our hearts. We salute you for your strength in the battle you've gone through and ... for a job well done!"

credits to his multiply account for the photo.

March 02, 2009

on love, relationship and letting go ...

True love only comes once in a lifetime, so take it as it comes along and enjoy every bit of it
whille it is still burning strong.

This is the true measure of love: When we strongly believe that there is no one else who could give as much love to our partners, nobody from their past, present or future.

When you loook into the eyes of your love, you see forever, you see warmth and safety, you see two hearts beating together for each other, for the rest of your lives.

if you love someoone, show the persoon your love everyday and in every way, because all the wealth in the world could never bring that person back when lost.

You may find peace in loving someone from a distance and not expecting anything in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow.

In the middle of this world full of hurt and sorrow, there is one question that would make you think: If the world ended today, would you be at peace with the amount of love you shared?

Did it ever cross your mind that the greatest love a father can give to his children is to love their mother?

We have to remember to always mean what we say, because the words that come out of our lips mean nothing if they do not come from the hearrt.

Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but it is also setting yourself from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.

To let go of someone doesn't mean that you have to stop loving. it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back.

The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance; far enough to allow each one to grow but never too far to feel the love within each others being.

Go for the person of deeds and not for the person of words, for you will find rewarding happiness not from the person you love but from the person who loves you more.

Always keep in mind that trust takes years to build, but mere seconds to destroy. And then it takes you even longer to rebuild it.

Love is like a road; either you travel it and marvel at the wonders it brings or you dont travel it and wonder what it would be like.

When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with someone, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

Remember that the problems in your relationship are not give to you to destroy you, but to make you better persons and strengthen your bond of love.

When our feelings get too strong for a person, it is always wise to stop for a while and give our hearts a time to breathe. Lets take the time to use our mind to weigh our situation based on reason and not on emotion.

When travelling the path of life and finding love along the way, everything will look new and different. Little do you know it is the same old landscape you used to see all the time; love has just given you new eyes.

Dont let your heart run your life, be sensible and consider what your mind tells you. Listen not only to your feelings, but to reason as well.

To love is to understand each other, to laugh together, to smile with your heart and trust one another. If you cant do all of these, then you might want to consider if you really want to be with each other.

Nothing could bring more contentment than seeing the love in your loved one's smile and knowing that smile is for you.

Love does not just last by itself. it is our intention to make that love last that determines whether it is going to grow strong and last long.

Breaking up is not always a bad thing. instead it makes you a better person, helps you realize your mistakes, and prepares you for your next relationship.

Keep in mind that everything happens for a reason. The bad thiings in life open your eyes to the good things you werent paying attention to before.

There may be loves found and lost, and your heart may break many times, but now, let the hope of love come and make you smile.

Sometimes you would feel like you want to show that special someone why you love him/her right then and there but it actually takes a lifetime to prove your love to that person. Dont be discouraged. because thats the beauty of love and what makes it last.

Dont be afraid to love with all your heart, because you never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back.

People often ask me what the best way to love is. After considering everything that comes with love, I think it is safe to say that the best way to love is to love like a child: pure, innocent and without hesitiation.

Dont be afraid to get your heart broken because one who has never experienced pain brought by love has never really learned how to love.

If you have reasons for loving someone then you are using your mind. If you cant find the reasons why you love someone, then you are using your heart.

Try to take away the feeling, the passion, and the romance in a relationship. if you find out that you still care for the person, then there is no doubt that it's love that you feel.

A person can be in love with someone forever till the end of time, but if that person doesnt tell or show his/her feelings of love, it will be just another person living in a dream, lost of true lovewe can never be certain of our relationships because not all of them are both to last our lifetime. We have to constantly nurture it so it can grow and we can grow old with it.

The greatest mistake we'll make in a relationship is when we look at somebody else other than our partner to satisfy our emtotional and physical needs, The second mistake is when we consciously allow ourselves to be the object of these emotional and physical desires.

In the midst of despair, pain, and sorrow, someone comes in our life and gives us strength to believe in life again. The love they give us and faith that helps us believe in ourselves again that we can make our dreams come true.

Love isn't always an easy road to pass through. if you find yourself confused about your path, take a minute and let love help you find your way.

Love can be the best thing that will ever happen to you. More often than not, your lover is also your best friend, one who will stand by you through thick and thin.

February 27, 2009

anyone else but you

-just saw juno (for the first time)
-i fell in love with the movie, the music, juno and paulie
-it's a must see (yeah,yeah i know what you're thinking...hey! it does cost a fortune to see a flick here in DXB)
-i would love to sing this duet with "the one" one day (the guitar part, i'll just leave that to him)
ANYONE ELSE BUT YOU - the moldy peaches (juno OST)
You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I will find my nitch in your car
With my mp3 DVD rumple-packed guitar
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You are always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam I'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Squinched up your face and did a dance
You shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du
But you

February 20, 2009

"Soulmate"

"Soulmate" - by Natasha Bedingfield

Incompatible, it don't matter though
'cos someone's bound to hear my cry
Speak out if you do
You're not easy to find

Is it possible Mr. Loveable
Is already in my life?
Right in front of me
Or maybe you're in disguise

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Here we are again, circles never end
How do I find the perfect fit
There's enough for everyone
But I'm still waiting in line

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

If there's a soulmate for everyone

Most relationships seem so transitory
They're all good but not the permanent one

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone

Who doesn't long for someone to hold
Who knows how to love you without being told
Somebody tell me why I'm on my own
If there's a soulmate for everyone
If there's a soulmate for everyone


101 Quotes of Timeless Wisdom as shared in ‘The Secret’ by Rhonda Byrne

Whilst I search for free download of the audiobook (can't afford the book and i'm getting more and more lazy in reading), this post will do for now.

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1. “We all work with one infinite power”

2. “The Secret is the Law of Attraction (LOA).”

3. “Whatever is going on in your mind is what you are attracting.”

4. “We are like magnets - like attracts like. You become AND attract what you think.”

5. “Every thought has a frequency. Thoughts send out a magnetic energy.”

6. “People think about what they don’t desire and attract more of the same.”

7. “Thought = creation. If these thoughts are attached to powerful emotions (good or bad) that speeds the creation.”

8. “You attract your dominant thoughts.”

9. “Those who speak most of illness have illness, those who speak most of prosperity have it, etc.”

10. “It’s not “wishful” thinking.”

11. “You can’t have a universe without the mind entering into it.”

12. “Choose your thoughts carefully; you are a masterpiece of your life.”

13. “It’s OK that thoughts don’t manifest into reality immediately (if we saw a picture of an elephant and it instantly appeared, that would be too soon).”

14. “EVERYTHING in your life you have attracted—accept that fact—it’s true.”

15. “Your thoughts cause your feelings.”

16. “We don’t need to complicate all the “reasons” behind our emotions. It’s much simpler than that. Two categories—good feelings and bad feelings.”

17. “Thoughts that bring about good feelings mean you are on the right track. Thoughts that bring about bad feelings means you are not on the right track.”

18. “Whatever it is you are feeling is a perfect reflection of what is in the process of becoming.”

19. “You get exactly what you are FEELING.”

20. “Happy feelings will attract more happy circumstances.”

21. “You can begin feeling whatever you desire (even if it’s not there)-the universe will correspond to the nature of your song.”

22. “What you focus on with your thought and feeling is what you attract into your experience.”

23. “What you think and what you feel and what actually manifests is ALWAYS a match - no exception.”

24. “Shift your awareness.”

25. “You create your own universe as you go along” Winston Churchill

26. “It’s important to feel good ( ( ( (((good))) ) ) ).”

27. “You can change your emotion immediately-by thinking of something joyful, or singing a song, or remembering a happy experience.”

28. “When you get the hang of this, before you know it you will KNOW you are the creator.”

29. “Life can and should be phenomenal-and it will be when you consciously apply the Law of Attraction.”

30. “Universe will re-arrange itself accordingly.”

31. “Start by using this sentence for all of your desires: “I’m so happy and grateful now that.””

32. “You don’t need to know HOW the universe is going to rearrange itself.”

33. “LOA is simply figuring out for yourself what will generate the positive feelings of having it NOW.”

34. “You might get an inspired thought or idea to help you move towards what you desire faster.”

35. “The universe likes SPEED. Don’t delay, don’t second-guess, don’t doubt.”

36. “When the opportunity or impulse is there—ACT.”

37. “You will attract everything you require—money, people, connections—PAY ATTENTION to what’s being set in front of you.”

38. “You can start with nothing—and out of nothing or no way—a WAY will be provided.”

39. “HOW LONG??? No rules on time—the more aligned you are with positive feelings the quicker things happen.”

40. “Size is nothing to the universe (unlimited abundance if that’s what you wish). We make the rules on size and time.”

41. “No rules according to the universe-you provide the feelings of having it now and the universe will respond.”

42. “Most people offer the majority of their thought in response to what they are observing—bills in the mail, being late, having bad luck, etc.”

43. “You have to find a different approach to what is through a different vantage point.”

44. “All that we are, is a result of what we have thought” - Buddha

45. “What can you do right now to turn your life around?” “Practice Gratitude.”

46. “Gratitude will bring more into our lives immediately.”

47. “What we think about and THANK about is what we bring about.”

48. “What are the things you are grateful for?? Feel the gratitude-focus on what you have right now that you are grateful for.”

49. “Play the picture in your mind—focus on the end result.”

50. “VISUALIZE!!! Rehearse your future.”

51. “VISUALIZE!!! See it, feel it! This is where action begins.”

52. “Feel the joy—feel the happiness!”

53. “An affirmative thought is 100 times more powerful than a negative one.”

54. “What this power is, I cannot say. All I know is that it exists.” Alexander Graham Bell.

55. “Our job is not to worry about the “How”. The “How” will show up out of the commitment and belief in the “what.””

56. “The ‘How’s’ are the domain of the universe. It always knows the quickest, fastest, most harmonious way between you and your dream.”

57. “If you turn it over to the universe, you will be surprised and dazzled by what is delivered-this is where magic and miracles happen.”

58. “Turn it over to the universe daily—but avoid making it a chore.”

59. “Feel exhilarated by the whole process—high, happy, in tune.”

60. “The only difference between people who are really living this way is they have habituated ways of being.”

61. “They remember to do it all the time.”

62. “Create a Vision Board-pictures of what you desire to attract—every day look at it and get into the feeling state of already having acquired these desires.”

63. “Imagination is everything. It is the preview of life’s coming attractions.” -Albert Einstein

64. “Decide what you desire-believe you can have it, believe you deserve it, believe it’s possible for you.”

65. “Close your eyes and visualize having what you already desire—and the feeling of having it already.”

66. “Focus on being grateful for what you have already-enjoy it!! Then release into the universe. The universe will manifest it.”

67. “Whatever the mind of man can conceive, it can achieve.” -W. Clement Stone

68. “Set a goal so big that if you achieved it, it would blow your mind.”

69. “When you have an inspired thought, you need to trust it and act on it.”

70. “How can you become more prosperous? INTEND IT!!”

71. “”Cheques are coming in the mail regularly,” or change your bank statement to whatever balance you desire, and get behind the feeling of having it.”

72. “Life is meant to be abundant in ALL areas.”

73. “Go for the sense of inner joy and peace, then, all outside things appear.”

74. “We are the creators of our universe.”

75. “Relationships: Treat yourself the way you desire to be treated by others-love yourself and you will be loved.”

76. “Healthy respect for yourself.”

77. “For those you work with or interact with regularly—get a notebook and write down positive aspects of each of those people.”

78. “Write down the things you like most about them (don’t expect change from them). Law of attraction will not put you in the same space together if your frequencies don’t match.”

79. “When you realize your potential to feel good, you will ask no one to be different in order for you to feel good.”

80. “You will free yourself from the cumbersome impossibilities of needing to control the world, your friends, your mate, your children.”

81. “You are the only one who creates your reality.”

82. “No one else can think or feel for you—Its YOU—ONLY YOU.”

83. “Health: Thank the universe for your own healing. Laugh, stress free happiness will keep you healthy.”

84. “Immune system will heal itself.”

85. “Parts of our bodies are replaced every day, every week-etc. Within a few years we have a brand new body.”

86. “See yourself living in a new body. Hopeful = recovery. Happy = happier biochemistry. Stress degrades the body.”

87. “Remove stress from the body and the body regenerates itself. You can heal yourself.”

88. “Learn to become still-and take your attention away from what you don’t desire, and place your attention on what you wish to experience.”

89. “When the voice and vision on the inside become more profound and clear than the opinions on the outside, then you have mastered your life.”

90. “You are not here to get the world to be just as you desire it. You are here to create the world around you that you choose.”

91. Allow the world as others choose to see it, to exist as well.”

92. “People think that if everyone knows the power of the LOA there won’t be enough to go around. This is a lie that’s been ingrained in us and makes so many greedy.”

93. “The truth is there is more than enough love, creative ideas, power, joy, happiness to go around.”

94. “All of this abundance begins to shine through a mind that is aware of its own infinite nature. There’s enough for everyone. See it. Believe it. It will show up for you.”

95. “So let the variety of your reality thrill you as you choose all the things you desire and get behind the good feelings of all your desires.”

96. “Write your script. When you see things you don’t desire, don’t think about them, write about them, talk about them, push against them, or join groups that focus on them-remove your attention from ‘don’t desires’ and instead place them on ‘do desires.’”

97. “We are mass energy. Everything is energy. EVERYTHING!!”

98. “Don’t define yourself by your body……it’s the infinite being that’s connected to everything in the universe.”

99. “One energy field. Our bodies have distracted us from our energy. We are the infinite field of unfolding possibilities—The creative force.”

100. “Are your thoughts worthy of you? If not - NOW is the time to change them. You can begin right where you are right now. Nothing matters but this moment and what you are focusing your attention on.”

101. The Secret is the key to everything - the secret to unlimited joy, health, money, relationships, love, youth: everything you have ever wanted.

February 17, 2009

do i need a reason?

do i need a reason? by d'sound

Today when I saw you
I knew it was just like the first time
When you met my eyes I came close
And I felt like the first time

To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I’ve never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and feel you so near
I’m scared of falling into deep this time

Do I need a reason to tell you why
I’m singing you this song
Do I need a reason to show you that
I know where I belong
Whenever I am weary I lean on
this feeling that I have
I am so much stronger now
Thankful, yes I am

Today I’ll renounce them,
the doubts and the fears I’ve been nursing
I’ll fly like a moth to the flame
and I’ll feel like the first time

To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I’ve never been this far before
To hold back my fear
and let you come near
I’m ‘fraid of loosing and still I go

February 13, 2009

happy puso

“Love is patient; love is kind and envies no one. Love is never boastful, nor conceited, nor rude; never selfish, not quick to take offense. There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, its hope, and endurance. In a word, there are three things that last forever: faith, hope, and love; but the greatest of them all is love.”

January 26, 2009

linger

on my way home last night, while listening to the radio somebody requested for this song. and as i was singing to it with the volume up to 20 i remembered my previous post (just friends). sobrang tugmang-tugma itong kantang to doon. at siyempre naalala ko na naman siya.

eto ang pinaka-fave kong linya ng kantang to: " Oh, I thought the world of you. I thought nothing could go wrong but I was wrong .... I was wrong."

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If you, if you could return
don't let it burn
don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not being rude
but it's just your attitude
it's tearing me apart
it's ruining everything

I swore, I swore I would be true
but heaven so did you
so why were you holding her hand
is that the way we stand
were you lying all the time
was it just a game to you

but I'm in so deep
you know I'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to let it linger
do you have to
do you have to
do you have to let it linger

Oh, I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
but I was wrong
I was wrong

If you, if you could get by
trying not to lie
things wouldn't be so confused
and I wouldn't feel so used
but you always really knew
I just wanna be with you

but I'm in so deep
you know I'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to let it linger
do you have to
do you have to
do you have to let it linger

but I'm in so deep
you know I'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to let it linger
do you have to
do you have to
do you have to let it linger

you know I'm such a fool for you
you got me wrapped around your finger
do you have to let it linger
do you have to
do you have to
do you have to let it linger

January 23, 2009

Just Friends

by Susan Nikaido

-- i read this from one of the bulletins of my friendster account. it's worth reading and kind of made me remember somebody from the past.

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If my sources are correct, the following scenario is played out frequently among the world of singles. It happens on both sides of the gender line, but allow me to talk about it from my own female perspective.

A man meets a woman and begins to show interest in her. He asks her to spend time with him on a regular basis : hiking, biking, watching video. He calls her at least once a week just
to talk. He begins telling her about the deeper things in his heart and invites her to share at this level as well. He sends her mushy "friendship" cards and tells her that she means a great deal to him. He may become a little affectionate: the hugs begin to linger.

The relationship has been defined as friendship, if it has been defined at all. But after all this special attention, the woman is definitely feeling more. So she asks the guy what’s going on. To her surprise, he does a quick about-face. He insists they are just friends. After that, he avoids her, leaving her hurt and bewildered. She feels rejected - she has lost not only a romantic interest (she thought) but worse, a close and trusted friend. And she feels stupid. Did she really misread all those signals?

After I experienced this as a single woman, I asked a friend my friend "Joel" to help me understand why guys do this. After I told him my woeful tale, he said, "I did that to somebody once." What? Why would you ever do such a thing?" I asked. We were getting too close, and it scared me," he said. This helped me understand why the "just friends" syndrome is so
widespread. A guy wants to get to know a girl, but without the pressure of dating. So he spends a lot of time with her, treating her in many ways like a girlfriend but defining the relationship as friends. This way, if it begins to look like there’s no future in the relationship,or he’s not ready to "get serious," he can back away with no messy breakup.

It sounds like a nice arrangement - for the guy. But that approach can be a problem for the woman. If a man tells a woman he just wants to "be friends" but he treats her as if it’s more than friendship, she will believe his behavior instead of his words. It sets her up for a big disappointment. Or if he invokes the "just friends" mantra after being asked about the nature of the relationship, but then promptly begins to distance himself from the friendship, again, his actions do not match his words.

He may think he’s sparing her feelings by avoiding a breakup. But by defining the relationship as a friendship, he hurts her even more deeply when he disappears. A dating relationship
comes with certain risks. But she expects a friendship - especially such a close one - to continue. Think about it this way: A broken dating relationship says only, "I don’t want to marry you"; a broken friendship says to her, "I don’t want/value you on any level." Taking a woman down this path violates two principles. First, it’s dishonest. Someone once said that it was the way of the World -not of a godly man - to say "yes, yes" and "no, no" in the same breath. A man of integrity will call a relationship what it is.

Second, it is not kind or loving. The "just friends" approach may be safer for the guy, but it is harmful to the woman. In effect, he is asking her for the rewards of a dating relationship
- companionship, emotional intimacy, even affection - without the responsibility. He is playing with her heart, and her heart will probably get broken. But what if a guy does only want
to be friends - or wants to develop a friendship before he decides to date? It’s pretty simple
He just treats the woman like all his other friends. He doesn’t spend more time with her or call her more often than he does his other friends. He usually invites other people along
when he get together with her. He doesn’t pick up the tab when just the two of them go out. He avoids compliments that might communicate she is "special" to him.He lets her know he spends time with other women.

He’s extremely careful about showing any physical affection - even playful shoves or hugs. If, after getting to know her from a safe emotional distance, he wants a deeper relationship, he
tells her that he wants to date her. What if you are not thinking about is more than friendship, but she asks about your intentions? Tell her you appreciate her friendship, but be honest about where you are. Above all, though it may be awkward for a while, continue to be her friend.

Years ago, I began to be attracted to a male friend. Though I hadn’t really been getting any signals that he was interested in me, I knew it would help settle my emotions to hear it
from him. I asked. He affirmed me as a person but told me gently - but clearly - that he thought of me only as a friend and then he did a wonderful thing. He kept being my friend. Though it hurt a little to learn I wasn’t attractive to him in that way, it helped to know he
still valued me and wanted me around. This was nearly 15 years ago, and though we have both moved to different states and married, we are friends to this day.

Women can be great friends. But guys, unless you are ready for a dating relationship, please be careful to treat us "as sisters, with absolute purity", not as girlfriends, nor as something in between.

December 20, 2008

a crash course on relationship

just trying to help. read on...

1. “Ang mag-assume, TALO (kahit 2% pa yan).”
2. “Kung ayaw may DAHILAN, kung gusto may PARAAN.”
3. “Wag masyado magpadala sa text.”
4. “BACK OFF (as in back off!) sa mga IN A RELATIONSHIP, kahit saan anggulo mo tingnan, ikaw pa rin ang mali .”
5. “Never borrow someone else’s man. If he cheated with you, he’ll cheat on you.”
6. “Hayaan mo siyang gawin yung gusto niyang gawin. Buhay niya yun, hindi mo maco-control. As long as alam niya yung limitations niya.”
7. GOLDEN RULE: “Don’t do unto HIM what you don’t want HIM to do unto you.”
8. “Take it slow… Steady lang…”
9. “Maniwala sa IT’S COMPLICATED na status. Hindi lang chenes yan.”
10. “Learn to LET GO kung alam mong wala na talaga.”
11. “Don’t stay because you think, “it will get better.” You’ll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. Sometimes guys mistreat you because you allow them to… Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you…”
12. “Keep your DIGNITY.”
13. “If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t want you, nothing can make him stay."
14. “Wag magselos sa siblings and relatives ng boyfriend/girlfirend mo.”
15. “Ang QT (quality time), at least 5 hours lang per week.”
16. “Don’t revolve your life around him. Learn to be independent.”
17. “Hindi dahilan ang TIME.”
18. “Kung ayaw sayo ng kapatid, hayaan mo siya. Wala siyang magagawa kung mahal ka talaga niya.”
19. “Wag magpakilala sa parents agad. It can affect your relationship.”
20. “Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Kadalasan tama ito mga girls…”
21. “Be nice to your EX. Wag maging BITTER.”
22. “If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you, as you deserve then heck no, you can’t “be friends”. A friend wouldn’t mistreat a friend. At some case this is applicable…
23. “Wag magpadala sa SITUATION. Baka overwhelmed ka lang.”
24. “Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Paminsan-minsan take off your helmet.”
25. “When you meet anyone, remember it’s a holy encounter. As you treat them you will treat yourself. As you think of them, you think of yourself. Never forget this, for in them you will find yourself or lose yourself.”
26. “Hindi balakid kung magkaiba ang RELIGION niyong dalawa.”
27. “Kung kayang I-workout, I-WORKOUT!”
28. “Kalokohan ang reason na “IT’S NOT YOU, IT’S ME.”
29. “All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing all the bending… compromise is a two way street.”
30. “Learn to forgive para magkaroon ka ng peace of mind.”
31. “Some can forgive but can’t forget.”
32. “If something bothers you, speak up!… mahirap kapag nagpapakiramdaman lang kayo.”
33. “OPEN COMMUNICATION, TRUST AND HONESTY are the most important ingredients in a relationship.”
34. “You need time to heal between relationships… there is nothing cute about baggage… deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship pag hindi kasi, it can affect or even ruin your relationship.”
35. “Ok lang na magselos, basta yung pakilig lang.”
36. “Always have your own set of friends separate from his para may iba kang channels that is without him… diba?”
37. “Make him miss you sometimes… when a man always know where you are, and you’re always readily available to him, he takes it for granted.”
38. “Always make time for your family and friends.”
39. “You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you… a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals… look for someone complimentary… not supplementary.”
40. “Always make time for yourself.”
41. “Wala yun sa tagal ng relationship… nasa pagmamahal”
42. “There’s NO SUCH THING as MR. RIGHT. It’s how you mold him to become rightfully for you.”
43. “There’s NO SUCH THING as COOL OFF/GRAY AREA. Kung white, white! Kung black, black! Walang GRAY AREA…”
44. “Always think a number of times before deciding on to something important.”
45. “There’s a possibility that a person can get attracted to another. It’s human nature. It’s not wrong. But that is why you’re in a commitment, you discipline yourself. One may get attracted to numerous prospects and its ok. As long as, you don’t nurse the feeling and do something about it. Borderline between cheating and faithfulness. Recognize reality that you already have the person that can give you more than what you get for the cheap thrill of attraction.”
46. “You need to let go of the past to have a future…(ICE AGE 2).”
47. “Do not take anyone for granted.”
48. “If what you see by the eye doesn’t please you, then close your eyes and see from the heart. Because the heart can see beauty and love more than the eyes can ever wonder.”
49. “If you felt it, then it was true. Getting hurt doesn’t always mean you suffered, it also means you loved sincerely. Don’t frown because it’s over… SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED.”
50. “KARMA (whatever you do) will find its way.”
51. “Everything will fall onto place.”
52. “Kung nakilala mo syang ganun, wag mong baguhin. ang pagmamahal may kasabay na pagtanggap.”
53. “Siguraduhin mong gusto mo talaga siya. Hindi dahil siya lamang ang nanliligaw sayo at siya lang ang available sa mga panahong nalulungkot ka e gusto mo na siya.”
54. “Set your standards. hindi pwedeng patol na lang ng patol.”

Goodbyes are not Forever

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. But as they say ...

"Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again!"

Lanie had left us to take a new path. we're happy for her and at the same time sad. happy coz she's to face and start a new chapter in her life. sad because she'll be far from us and our lives will never be the same without her.

I love my friends very much and dealing with the "letting them go" part is really hard for me. but goodbyes are inevitable, changes are inevitable and they need to live their own life, as how they chose it to be. and for me, as a friend, i need to accept it and be happy for them.

"mami-miss ka namin neng."